Last week, I posted an article about my very recent experience being diagnosed with cancer. I wrote it from my hospital bed, with IV tubes hanging out of my arm, while watching bad daytime TV on mute. I questioned if it was too personal a story to share publicly, but felt it would be impossible not to. I had no expectations. It flowed from the heart.
Since then, an amazing thing has happened. The article was shared over Facebook and the Huffington Post, in the last few days, tens of thousands of people have visited my blog, thousands have subscribed to follow along with my story, and hundreds and hundreds have left me supportive comments or emailed me encouraging messages. Several dozen emailed me their personal stories with cancer, including other women who had chemotherapy and were still able to conceive children after. I even got an incredibly touching phone message from a stranger in New Hampshire who wanted to offer a few words of comfort.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. I can’t tell you how much your support and positivity means to me. It’s brought tears to my eyes to be on the receiving end of such kindness. Wow. Heart touched. Mind blown. People are good.
A few people wanted to know my Jewish name to pray for me (I’m Jewish, but accept all methods of prayer!). It’s just Elana, and my mother’s is Meira.
I also had made a small Amazon wish list that I shared with my friends on Facebook, and couldn’t believe when everything was snatched up almost immediately. I’ve been getting awesome packages all week that have been brightening my day (the mailman thinks I went on some sort of Amazon binge). I will be emailing everyone thank you’s very soon.
I haven’t had a change to respond to any messages yet, but please know how much they mean to me. I almost feel bad for my cancer. It doesn’t have a fucking chance.
I want to write more about what’s been going on, but one of the side effects of the intrathecal chemotherapy (that’s chemo injected through a lumbar puncture directly into my cerebral spinal fluid—yes, it’s just as fun as it sounds) has been throbbing headaches that have kept me mostly on the couch the last 5 days. I will be back soon will an update. Physically I don’t feel great, but my spirits are very high.
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